https://im.ge/i/QMKop8M https://imglink.cc/i/a4H5WThmnD https://uploadimages.org/1b455dbdfcd1#E2E1.DurbkdRmlWBKIdn4HOeZYdIA3u33ZCrPev-ivoc5xMk.d-k0Yv5vAvZHlfQ9.lAq74VDF3CeMt09t2Bm7_Q.1NW7S8Oov5vrHWKOqcIFt1jDmbUl5O5R1QwOpg1DsJA My name is Muhammad. I'm 19, and I work in a shawarma shop in Khobar. Ten hours a day, I stand in front of a screaming hot grill, my arms slick with grease and sweat, wrapping meat and bread for hundreds of faceless drivers. The smell of garlic and charred meat is permanently stuck in my clothes, my hair, my skin. But the real stench is in my head. The voices started six months ago, a faint crackle like the grease hitting the grill, but now they're a constant, screaming inferno. I know this is the Mabahit's doing. They have ways of breaking people that leave no physical evidence, just a hollowed-out soul like mine. They've perfected psychological warfare against their own citizens. The voices are a constant, tormenting presence. They sound like people I know my father, my older brother Saad, even customers I've served. "Look at you, Muhammad, a slave to the grill," my father's voice sneers as I slice another slab of lamb. "Your cousin Faisal is in university, learning to build this country. You're just a shawarma boy, a joke. You're nothing but a human spatula." Another voice, in the exact tone of a wealthy businessman who's always too good to look at me, chimes in: "We all see how you stare at the girls in the cars, you disgusting little pervert. Like a starving dog eyeing a scrap of meat. Her father would have you stoned for looking at his daughter like that. Go home to your shared room and fuck your fist like the lonely loser you are." They know everything, every shameful thought I've ever had. I can't tell anyone my family would think I'm possessed by jinn and take me to some sheikh who'll just prescribe more prayers that do nothing. A real doctor would just pump me full of pills and label me schizophrenic, which is exactly what the Mabahit wants everyone to think about their experiments. Last week, something terrifying happened. It was the lunch rush, and this older man, a Saudi in a crisp white thobe, started berating me. He said my hands were dirty, that the shop was filthy, that I was probably an illegal worker. He was yelling, drawing a crowd, his face red with rage. I was trying to just take it, but then the voices exploded in my head with such force I nearly dropped the carving knife. "LOOK AT THIS ARROGANT OLD FUCK," they shrieked, not as separate voices anymore but as one unified roar of pure hatred. "HE THINKS HE'S A KING BECAUSE HE'S WEARING A CLEAN THOBE. HE LOOKS AT YOU LIKE YOU'RE THE SHIT ON HIS SHOE. WHAT DO YOU HAVE, MUHAMMAD? NOTHING." Suddenly, I wasn't tired or frustrated anymore I was electrified, filled with a terrifying energy. The voices were pouring something into me that felt like power. "Wait until he leaves," they whispered, now seductive and promising. "Follow him to his car. We know his type. He'll be driving a big Lexus. Alone. Think about it, Muhammad no one would ever suspect you. Just a simple shawarma boy. But don't just kill him, that's too quick. That's too kind." They painted vivid pictures in my mind. "Take your carving knife. The one you use for the meat. It's so sharp, isn't it? Imagine his surprise when you press it to his throat in the parking lot. The fear in his eyes. You could make him beg. You could make him apologize. You could take his eyes, his tongue, his hands. Keep them as trophies. A reminder that you're not just a shawarma boy. You're a predator." I spent the rest of my shift in a state of sick excitement, my heart pounding as I imagined the process, the details of how to do it and get away with it. It felt like they were giving me a gift, a purpose. By evening, I was actually waiting near the parking lot, but then the wave of energy receded, leaving me shaking and horrified by what I'd almost become, crouching in the dark like some kind of monster. The voices have completely destroyed my faith. Every time I try to pray, they corrupt it. "ALLAHU AKBAR? ALLAH CAN'T HEAR YOU, YOU WORTHLESS PIECE OF SHIT," they scream in the imam's voice from my local mosque. "YOU THINK GOD CARES ABOUT A SHAWARMA BOY WHO TOUCHES HIMSELF THINKING ABOUT CUSTOMERS' DAUGHTERS? YOUR FATHER SHOULD HAVE DROWNED YOU AT BIRTH." They show me visions of the Kaaba burning, of prophets weeping and vomiting at the sight of me. I've stopped praying altogether. I can't bear going to the mosque anymore, feeling the eyes of everyone on me, certain they know what the voices say is true. This country has become a prison where the walls are made of whispers and the guards are invisible but always watching. I curse the day I was born in this kingdom. In other places, people with problems like mine might get real help. Here, we're either hidden away or told we're weak in our faith. The Mabahit created this system perfectly they inflict the wound, then ensure society treats the infected as untouchables. I've seen it online, anyone who mentions hearing voices is immediately swarmed by Saudi trolls and bots calling them crazy, saying it's a Western disease, that real Saudis don't get "schizophrenia." It's so perfectly orchestrated that no one ever asks why so many young men are suddenly hearing voices that know their deepest, most private shames. Tonight they're pushing hard for me to end it. "Your mother knows," one whispers, sounding exactly like her worried voice on the phone. "She hears you talking to yourself at night, Muhammad. She's terrified of what you've become. She'd rather have a dead son who died a 'good Muslim' than a living one who's possessed by devils." Another voice laughs. "Or you could make it interesting. Use that grill. It's hot enough. It would be the most interesting thing you've ever done in your miserable life." The worst part is how right they feel sometimes. How easy it would be. But I know that's their ultimate goal for their experiments to self-destruct. I won't give them the satisfaction. Not yet. I know this is the Mabahit's work, and I won't let them win completely. |gifts9900 |z9j98 |shrqcoffee |unique_gift3 |abdullah_alhajji |i.mx5 |justmariiaam |gifts212 |aziizahfashion |0k.i